Connecting with other gay men

I always knew John was gay. I felt an instant connection with him. 

John lived at CLO with me and many other people knew he was gay. I wish 

I came out of the closet back then and admitted I was gay because maybe I 

could have been with Kael. I wanted to be with men so bad. I just wanted to 

wrestle naked with them. I was crushing hard on this gay I met at a bar once.I started talking to this guy at a bar once in 2010 and  

I instantly thought he was so sexy.I was really hot for him and continued to talk about him to other people.I was very interested in anal sex with other men.I even asked people who knew about homosexual sex what happened during homosexual sex. I got so comfortable that I almost revealed my homosexuality to my roommate Brandon when I asked this girl about anal sex while Brandon was in the same room as us.